new year blues

When I said I wanted to lose 20 more lbs in the new year, I had no idea it would be the same 20 lbs I lost in 2009! Some switch has flipped in my brain and I am completely without motivation. As I pack on the pounds slowly each day I feel discouraged and frustrated with myself. Not helpful for one's confidence or self-esteem to be sure. Some how I need to make myself dust off and get started again. I replaced my clothes with the new size that fit the new body and lets just say there's no room in the budget for an upgrade. SO. That is what will have to be my motivation! I am tired of being tired after having so much renewed energy. I hate how I feel about myself right now.